blg2626

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2009-01-30T17:05:52Z

Life

2008-10-26T03:41:56Z

I'm figuring it out as I go?

"Don’t throw yourself out on another’s whim. People change, as do intentions and as a result, consequences. Live for yourself - love those around you, but realize that they’ve got their own agendas." - Alex Gashkarth

Thank you alex for shedding light on the ridiculous happenings in my life <3

I'm throwing out the haters and the fakers, keeping the trustworthy and the fun loving
I'm ridding my life of drama and lies
I need happy ppl, those who take me for me, love me for me
Bye Bye you hopeless wreak
I won't be here to pick you up
Find your own footing
YOUR life is not MY fault
I don't need you anymore...

This is my final farewell

Music

2008-10-17T04:26:34Z

It doesn't judge you
or hold you at fault
It speaks the words you can not
Reveals hidden emotions
You didn't know you had
Lets you be a different person
Lets you find yourself
It gives you what your missing

On a side note...
Today I was asked who I was...not who I wanted to be or what I think of myself...just simply who I was.
My answer...
I'm exactly who I want to be, I'll grow and mature and find bits and pieces of myself, but as of right now, I'm exactly who I want to be.

Bye Bye

2008-08-18T01:51:52Z

Summer of <b>08</b>
I'll miss you :'(

I'll miss your late nights and sleeping in till noon
I'll miss your hot days and sunny rays
I'll miss the music blaring and heads banging

What can I say you were good to me!
I had a fabulous time

We're still so fuckin young

2008-08-01T06:03:31Z

More then anything else in the world
I yearn to be free
Take off
Get out
Of this place I call home

I want to feel young
The wind in my hair
The sun on my face
The music blasting

I'm feeling restricted and
Held back here
There aren't many opportunities
Or choices to be made

I have big city dreams
Stuck in a small city town
I'm growing up to fast
Forced to face life quicker then desired

This place will forever be a part of me
But it cant have all of me!

I must be dreaming

2008-07-09T04:49:48Z

A year ago to the day
Was the day I fell in love
Not with a boy
Not with a friend
Not with anything I can touch

But I fell for Music!

I cant explain the way it makes me feel
There are no words
For what music has given me

I can live the live I want through music
I can be young
I can be free
I can be sad
I can be happy

Its not just noise
And its not just something to do
Its a way of life!

You can full submerge yourself
Lost yourself
In the words
Find yourself
Find answers
Live it up
Live it down

The endless possibilities produced by music are by far what I live for

She's eighteen and a beauty queen

2008-07-02T01:45:58Z

Concerts...
I finally know why they are my favorite place on earth!!!
Its a whole bunch of sweaty people
Smashed into one place
Moving at the same time
Loving the same thing

If you get a good crowd that doesnt
Push and shove and get all bitchy on your ass
And they dont move and dance and jump
Then there is no way the concert could be bad

There's a spontaneity about concerts
You never know what could happen
Maybe you'll meet the band after
Maybe they'll look at you and smile or sing to you
Maybe they'll ask you up on stage

Concerts are a game of chance and luck
They make you feel young!
They let you enjoy life
Forget your troubles

Its where I want to be!!!

It's done!

2008-05-28T00:57:26Z

Don't hold me back! Don't keep me from being me! Let me do what I dream of doing!!! Don't be selfish and keep me to yourself. Share me! Let me go!

I want to be...

2008-04-09T04:13:10Z

I want to be someone before I die! I want to be apply to look back on my life and say...Hey I really did something with myself! I want to be luckier then I am! I want stuff to fall into my lap...I dont want to search for it! I want to be loved and taken the way I am. When people ask me a question I want to be able to say 'Yah I did that years ago'. I want to meet all the coolest people and be at all the right places at the right time! I want people to be jealous of me! I want people to want to be me! I want to find ever AMAZING band out there before anyone else does! I want all the crazy cool stuff to happen to me! I want to be friends with someone 'special'! I dont want to be alone my whole life. I dont want to be forgotten, and I sure as hell dont want to be left out of life! I want to travel and see what life is all about! I want to be remembered by people I dont even know. I want a secret lover who comes up to me one day and professes his love for me!!! I want an EPIC! life! A story for the ages! An epic love story...maybe?

But out of all the things I want to/dont want to be...I WANT TO BE A BETTER PERSON!!!

(All of these things might sound horrible...but I cant help how I feel! Its the truth)

What's next?

2008-04-06T06:42:04Z

What do you do when your favorite friend/bf/gf gets to 'big' to notice you anymore??? Do you forget about them and move on...do you try and reconnect...Do you throw books at them and scream until they notice you...
By 'Big' I mean like they become popular all of a sudden or they keep getting a TON of compliments about they way they look and they think they're hot stuff!
I hate when it happens!!!!!! I never know how to deal with it :( I mostly just try and ignore it or hope it goes away...most of the time it doesn't and your stuck with the grim reality of all things (insert name here)

Its lame it happens at all! and it SUCKS! when it does : (

blg2626 @ 2008-03-15T17:50:00

2008-03-15T23:51:23Z

So I really need/want a boyfriend but nobody seems to be interested and I don't really like anybody at this every moment...Cause the person I might just possible like has a girlfriend and we have some weird passed so that is just not going to go anywhere. But anyway...I came to the conclusion that if I stop worrying about finding a boyfriend and stop "looking" for one....The right one might just fall into my lap! Now I can't truly do that if I subconsciously tell myself to stop looking for love cause in a round-about way I'm still looking for a boyfriend.
Does that even happen? Stop looking for love and love finds you?

Well I will keep you posted on how my twisted mess of a heart works out!

Writer's Block: Meaningful Words

2008-03-15T23:38:19Z

What is your favorite quote? And why?

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Well thats a pretty easy one! It would have to be "To face the fear but not feel scared" by Natasha Bedingfield
Because so many of us are going through things we are scared of or dont want to deal with and to stand up and face what truely scares the crap out of you is an amazing thing!